Hearing it from the grapevine

Last year it was a big deal and caused a lengthy talk and many questions because I mentioned the 'thought' of extending my holiday to his sister before telling him. Now there so many things I get to learn when he is talking to other people on the phone... visiting another country soon, having an event to relaunch his business. I can see how easily people start having separate lives. This is sad actually, but we both know we are not in the right place and I don't know if we will ever be.. I don't see it happening especially after certain arrangements have been put in place.

Power of the tongue

I was taught that the power of life and death lies in the tongue... Even in the heat of arguments, I try to control what I say and maybe that is why I get frustrated and throw things instead/ break stuff.... I wish I could fast forward a video of my life and see how certain things turn out, how it will all end up. I fear certain things...I don't think we are heading in the right direction but right now I don't have the strength to do anything about it.. I'm worn out and certainly can't debate anymore about anything. Thinking back, I realize I've never really been with people who are activists or great debaters..its always been some talking, complaints and some easy going times with friends..it's just something I'm not used to and I shouldn't try and be someone I am not if I dont have what it takes.

FREE, FREE AT LAST!!!

My mind is free!!!!! I'm finally at peace over a partnership agreement that I spent too much time thinking about a few months ago. It's great when you look at something from a different perspective. So, after all, it is true, not in theory as I had heard before, but now I see it and experience it, you MUST allow people to chase and follow their dreams and wishes.. you must. And you should chart your own course because no one has the responsibility to make you happy...you must find your own happiness in life. woooo hoooo!!!